you asked me if talking on the phone at night was all that important to me, and really, im surprised you asked, since you read me easily and know me so well. every things going wrong. im scared to go to school, because i dont know what kind of trouble im going to get into today. every time i hear a security outside my classroom, i wonder if theyre coming to get me for either csi or suspension. my grades arent the best, my parents are pissed at me, and im just holding on to you, harder than i ever am, because youre the one thing thats going perfectly, when everything else is going wrong. and i was in bed for an hour after we hung up, tossing and turning, thinking about everything, and thinking about you, and i laid on my back ,looked up at my celing and told myself "alex? sure, we hardly ever talk anymore and we havent seen eachother, but were in love, stuff like this will go away, we love eachother so much. the girl? shes not gonna do anything, she says she will, but she wont. if i havent gotten csi yet, she probably wont write me up and if she does, oh well, 3 fucking days of no class, wah wah wah. and i cant get suspended, i didnt do shit" and that made me feel better. the weekend is here and i really pray that i get to see you, alex. i need to. i need you. youre the key to my happiness. my life, my world, my soul, my everything. and everytime i replay tthose last couple i love you in my mind, i get shivers down my spine, get the chills and my heart starts beating quicker. you, alexander capaldo, are the love of my life. you are the reason i was put on this earth. youre the reason i wake up in the morning, youre the reason i keep breathing. and i just wanna hug you, and hold you, and lay down with you and just kiss you and tell you i love you, all through the night, because thats what makes me happy. thats the only thing that makes me happy, being with you. ive never felt like this for anyone, in my entire life, and i love it, i honestly do. we took it so fast, and we fell so hard, its just crazy how i have you. austin and i were talking about how we were talking for a week, and he goes "now you have capaldo, the hottest kid on the face of the earth." and i just thought about how incredibly lucky and blessed i am to have you. i dont need anything else. i dont want anything else. on 11:11, i wish for you. for us. forever and ever. i wish for this happiness to never go away. i love you, alex, so much. i hope you know that.