I woke up today, and when i realized what it was, i smiled so big, my face hurt. It feels so good having you. I've been through many, sooo many, it was about time i got someone like you.
I got home from school today and i snuck on my laptop and i stared and stared at my desktop for a good 20 minutes, the background being that picture of us, and i closed my eyes and remembered all the times we'd see each other. I'd remember how incredibly happy i was, for those couple hours, to be able to kiss you whenever i wanted to. I'm happy just touching you.
December 25th, i remember i laid on you, and ran my fingers down your arm, and i couldn't believe it was real. it didn't sink in till i got home, and told you how much i loved you. those rare times you whisper i love you between kisses, thats what i live for. i get goosebumps and shivers down my spine whenever i kiss you, and quite frankly, it's almost impossible to wipe a smile off of my face when i'm with you. Your touch, your kisses, your smile-it's all so perfect.
Sixth period comes by, and that's the worst. I stare and stare at the clock, waiting for 2:30 to hit, so i can go home, sleep, and talk to you, because that's what my day is about; talking to you.
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You are my life, Alex. Words can't describe how happy you make me. Everything can be going wrong, but i'd still have a smile on my face. I've never been able to tell someone i love them, and mean it quite like i do, with you. And I honestly know that i'm always going to love you. We can break up, you can screw me over in every way possible, but i'd still love you the same exact way.
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I remember when we were talking, long long ago. I was always so attached to you, I always knew you meant a lot to me, Whether you liked only me, or 10 other girls. It's how you were so different than the others, How you took me seriously, from the start. And I loved you, long before I could've admitted it to you. I was so scared to tell you; maybe you didn't feel the same way, maybe i was just some other girl to you, Maybe it was too soon, maybe i would've overwhelmed you. And I remember that day on the phone, at night, the first night i spoke to you on the phone, you admitted it to me, and little did i know, i could've loved you more than i did , at that moment.
And the fact that you waited, you waited 2 months, for a girl you've never laid eyes on. Everyone thought it was so odd, but it grew to be quite normal, for us. you'd always bother me with begging to see me, and i'd get so annoyed because i was afraid you weren't going to like me, when you saw me. but, you did, and everything went so well, everythign with you is like a dream, and it recently all sunk in, that you're real. and that you're not ever going anywhere.
You just Imed me and i smiled so big, it's those cute smilies you use, whenever you say i love you, those times where we get into longgg conversations about how much we love eachother, they mean everything to me. You mean everything to me.
Alex, for as long as i live, I'm going to love you, and it seems so crazy, to me, that it's three months, and i love you more than you can imagine. How much willl i love you in a year? How about 10 years? It all just seems so amazing to me, to know i'm going to be happy for the rest of my life, because i know i'll always always have you, no matter what.
I love you, Alex. Happy three month.
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