cubanxx129xx: Daniiiiii...

cubanxx129xx: Like always

cubanxx129xx: I have cute little thoughts in my head

cubanxx129xx: About what you said

cubanxx129xx: Buttttttt

cubanxx129xx: Before I do

cubanxx129xx: I just want to tell you that im sorry.

cubanxx129xx: Very sorry.

cubanxx129xx: That

cubanxx129xx: I treated you so bad this week.
cubanxx129xx: I hardly talked to you. Was distracted from my phone half the time

cubanxx129xx: I was just so busy but im sorry because I know that you're my #1 prority.

cubanxx129xx: I love you and I promise I won't let it happen again
daniwoodsie: dont even worry about it, alex, i love you too fucking much. its fine, really :}

daniwoodsie: omgggggggg, dont do this to me right now, i JUST did my make up, fml

daniwoodsie: i love you too :-D
cubanxx129xx: Don't do what to you x]
daniwoodsie: make me get all teary eyed.

daniwoodsie: youre so damn cute, alex.

daniwoodsie: you really are so incredibly perfect, honestly, i dont mind it

daniwoodsie: you have running, homework, school, and all the shit in between, i know you cant always have time for me.
cubanxx129xx: But I want to have time for you

cubanxx129xx: Regardless

cubanxx129xx: If im really busy or not.
daniwoodsie: :-)

daniwoodsie: i love you so much.
cubanxx129xx: I love you too :D hd
daniwoodsie: forever and ever and ever, and then some.

you asked me if talking on the phone at night was all that important to me, and really, im surprised you asked, since you read me easily and know me so well. every things going wrong. im scared to go to school, because i dont know what kind of trouble im going to get into today. every time i hear a security outside my classroom, i wonder if theyre coming to get me for either csi or suspension. my grades arent the best, my parents are pissed at me, and im just holding on to you, harder than i ever am, because youre the one thing thats going perfectly, when everything else is going wrong. and i was in bed for an hour after we hung up, tossing and turning, thinking about everything, and thinking about you, and i laid on my back ,looked up at my celing and told myself "alex? sure, we hardly ever talk anymore and we havent seen eachother, but were in love, stuff like this will go away, we love eachother so much. the girl? shes not gonna do anything, she says she will, but she wont. if i havent gotten csi yet, she probably wont write me up and if she does, oh well, 3 fucking days of no class, wah wah wah. and i cant get suspended, i didnt do shit" and that made me feel better. the weekend is here and i really pray that i get to see you, alex. i need to. i need you. youre the key to my happiness. my life, my world, my soul, my everything. and everytime i replay tthose last couple i love you in my mind, i get shivers down my spine, get the chills and my heart starts beating quicker. you, alexander capaldo, are the love of my life. you are the reason i was put on this earth. youre the reason i wake up in the morning, youre the reason i keep breathing. and i just wanna hug you, and hold you, and lay down with you and just kiss you and tell you i love you, all through the night, because thats what makes me happy. thats the only thing that makes me happy, being with you. ive never felt like this for anyone, in my entire life, and i love it, i honestly do. we took it so fast, and we fell so hard, its just crazy how i have you. austin and i were talking about how we were talking for a week, and he goes "now you have capaldo, the hottest kid on the face of the earth." and i just thought about how incredibly lucky and blessed i am to have you. i dont need anything else. i dont want anything else. on 11:11, i wish for you. for us. forever and ever. i wish for this happiness to never go away. i love you, alex, so much. i hope you know that.

perfection. nothing but.

cubanxx129xx: :D
daniwoodsie: :-)

daniwoodsie: i love you sooo much
cubanxx129xx: Whyyyy :D
daniwoodsie: because youre cute, funny, attractive, adorable, loving;just perfect, AND MINE.
cubanxx129xx: Well

cubanxx129xx: Guess what
daniwoodsie: what alex what?
cubanxx129xx: That

cubanxx129xx: You're the love of my life and mean more than the whole world to me and you're the reason I wake up :D

daniwoodsie: !@#$%^&*(_+ i love when you say stuff like this, makes me falll in love all over again.

cubanxx129xx: :D

cubanxx129xx: Awhhhhh

cubanxx129xx: I loveeee yoyoouoooououououoo

cubanxx129xx: I fucking miss you and I want to see you sso badddddd

cubanxx129xx: No jokeeee

cubanxx129xx: :/

daniwoodsie: i think i'd need more than one kiss with how much i've missed and needed you this week ):

Its 11:05 and I need you. I’ve been lying in bed just thinking and thinking about you. Thinking about laying on each other on the field, on Valentine’s Day, being in your arms in your couch and mine, kissing you endlessly. A couple days, you asked for my unconditional love, and I’ve kept that in mind, and I’ve been wondering; do I love you unconditionally? No matter what you say, what you do, I lie in my bed at night, and think about nothing but you. I stare at the clock at school and wait for it to reach 2:30, so that I’m that much closer to talking to you, again. I write your name on my hand and kiss your bracelet numerous times throughout the day and when I miss you, when I need you, my body aches for you, I get headaches, I can’t walk and my eyes tear from just the thought of your voice. My unconditional love? You have it. As long as I’m living, as long as I’m breathing and roaming the earth, I will always love you. As long as I’m breathing and roaming the earth, I will be smiling, knowing that I was loved by the guy of my dreams. Its 11:11 and all I'm asking for, all I need anymore, is you. I just need to have you around. I need to hear your voice every day. I need to hear your I love yous.  The smell of your clothes, the taste of your lips, the feeling of your touch, it’s all stuck to me. It haunts me, those times where I miss you. And Alex, we’re young and so in love and we promise each other forever, but it will take so much commitment, so much strength and double our love to keep us together. We’re promising each other that we’ll get through high school, only kissing one person. We’ll go through college, only being with one person. And we’re promising each other that through the cycles that our lives take, we’ll be together. And Alex, I’ll promise that to you as many times as you’d like me to, and I’ll put my life and world into loving you, but reality always strikes, and it makes me wonder if we have the strength to love each other, for 50 years to come. Makes me wonder if one of us will get selfish, and want more from others. It scares me. It terrifies me. And so I talked to Azmae about this today and she told me if I love you today, then I love you today. If I love you tomorrow, it’s a different case. We take one day at a time; love each other day by day because if we worry about the future, what were going to do, how we’re going to work it out, we’re wasting our time when we could be talking about more important things. What we have right now is perfect. I couldn’t ask for anything else. We have something that I thought only existed in movies. I thought happy endings were only made by directors and writers. I see my friends, and I see myself. Jumping from guy to guy, struggling to find a guy who has the slightest respect for them because they throw themselves around, trying to find someone who’ll love them. Trying to find someone who’ll make them happy for once and I think about how I made that change. I'm thinking about how before I met you, I was going to tell myself that I’d let the next guy just come along, and that I was going to do him right. That I wasn’t going to out myself like I always did. And it worked. And it makes me think, maybe if I didn’t meet Austin, I wouldn’t have met you. Maybe I didn’t know Vicky, I wouldn’t have put as much effort as I did. Maybe if I never added you, we would have never heard of each other. If things would have been even slightly different, maybe we wouldn’t be where we are now. And I am so thankful everything played out like it did. I am so thankful that I have you, forever. I am so thankful that no matter what I say, you’ll love me. I am so incredibly blessed to have found you, when I most needed you. When I tell you I love you, I mean it with every inch in my body. When I tell you I miss you, it’s because even if I tried, I couldn’t force a smile on my face because the you're the only thing that makes me happy anymore. You’re the only reason I smile. You are my life; there really is no other way to put it. There really is nothing I need more in life, than you. You're perfect as you are, but I ask of two things; a response to every letter I write to you, I like to read the stuff you write to me, and just like you, I need your unconditional love.  I started this 20 minutes ago and I'm already by two pages. Its 11:34 and I need to get some sleep. I love you, Alex. I love you so much. Please don’t ever let go.

i hate this.

i'm scared and im vulnerable and every word that comes out of your mouth hits me like a ton of rocks. and it all makes me wonder, think is all i can do, since i don't have you around;

why am i so weak when it comes to you? i've never been this fragile, ever in my life, especially not with a guy. and if you love me and you tell me you love me, why am i so scared?

we're so young and so in love, i wonder how we'll be in a couple of years.

my friend sam, is a junior and shes been with her boyfriend for a year and a half and shes thinking about taking a break from him, for the whole summer, for the sake of their sanity. i wonder if we'll be like that. i wonder if we'll ever just get tired of eachother, if all the excitement and anxiety we have for each other will ever fade. makes me wonder if our love will ever fly away. if wonder if we'll ever break up and makeup, i wonder if we'll ever reach that level.

and i wonder if we'll always be happy. i wonder if we'll never have to worry. i wonder if we're going to get married and live forever, like we've promised so many times before.

my sanity is running thin and it proves it all to me; i need you like the air i breathe, i can't eat, i cant hold my head up high and i've been dizzy and lightheaded all weekend and i can hardly even walk straight. i need you physically and emotionally, alex. i'm down and i cant seem to smile, but as soon as i see my aim blinking, i jump up with excitement, read your i love yous and all i can do is smile. your my life, my world, my everything. you always have been. you're all i've ever wanted, my whole life, you're what i've been looking for, you're what i need. and honestly, all i ever want is to be with you. i don;t need anything else in life.

It’s been three months, and I would have never imagined we get here. Every time I look at Vicky, I think back at when we first met, how I just wanted you. How I just wanted to be with you. How I didn’t look at you like just another hook up. I tried harder than I ever did with anybody else, you knew it. It’s been three months, and I can’t believe it. It’s all a dream. I can’t believe you took your time with me. I can’t believe you waited two months for me. I can’t believe you fell in love. I can’t believe you’re still in love. And I still can’t believe that I’m the one you want to marry. It all happened so fast, and I’m wondering what good I did to ever deserve you. The way you treat me, the way you talk to me, the things you say to me, it’s all so perfect. It’s the stuff you only see and hear on movies. It seems like I’m just floating on a cloud, like it’s all a sweet dream to me. I used to always wonder when I was going to wake up. When reality was going to crash down on me and snatch it all away from me, but I know we’re forever. It’s so cliché and it sounds like the words of every other couple, but the meaning behind our words, the love we share, it’s like no other.  When you kiss me, I don’t think about sex, what’s going to happen next, where your hands are going to slither, I don’t care about any of that. I don’t care about what we do, those times we spend alone.  When you kiss me, I think about how much I love you. How you mean nothing but the world to me. How without you, I have no life. How you love me, just as much as I love you. How much we care for each other, how weak and fragile we are when we miss each other.  I think about it all. It all flies by my mind. And that’s why I smile when I kiss you. That’s why I can never pull away. We don’t have any problems .we don’t fight. We don’t argue. When we talk, we’re just constantly reminding each other, exactly how much we mean the word love.  Love is to think about the other constantly. Love is when your body aches for the other. Love is when you can’t think about anything else, when you’re together.  Love is when you’re sure it’s forever. Love never goes away, it’s only lost. That’s why I know we’re getting married, having babies, and growing old together. When it’s lost, I’ll climb through mountain tops, swim through the 7 oceans, and find it, because you’re worth it. You’re worth every little bit of it. At the age of fourteen, I’m willing to devote my whole life into loving you. Because I know in the end, through it all, you make me happy. And that’s all I need. You’re all I need. You know me better than I know myself and you read me easily, you have an idea of what I’m going to say all the time, and that’s what makes me smile. How close we are. How we can lie in the grass for hours and talk about absolutely nothing, without a dull moment. How I can sit at my computer for sun up to sun down, just talking to only you. Just hearing your voice fills me with so much joy. Hearing your laugh gives me goose bumps and hearing you whisper those three words sends shivers down my spine.  So, I cling to you. I cling to you because you’re the one person who doesn’t judge me for all of my mistakes. The one person who doesn’t get mad, when I say something wrong. The one person who tells me they love me, when I’m in the worst possible mood. And I need you. When you’re away, when you’re gone and I have no way to talk to you, I feel incomplete. I feel shattered and broken. I need to see your cute smileys, and hear your voice every day of my life, to get through the day. It’s just how perfect you are; the way you touch me, the feeling of your arms wrapped around my waist, when you press your lips against mine, when you smile between our kisses, how you laugh at my jokes, how even though I get annoying and selfish, you take it, how I get jealous and instead of getting mad, you prove to me exactly how much you love me. It’s everything you do, everything you say. You’re perfection. Nothing but perfection.  And I wonder why you chose me. I wonder why you settled for such little. And that’s why I try so hard. I write to you as often as I can, I make sure I don’t get grounded, beg for my phone back, make sure to be on aim all the time, make sure to be as good as I can be, to match up to you. I start shaking whenever I see you and I can’t breathe when I kiss you. And I’m happy, Alex. I’m the happiest I’ve ever been. These couple months have picked up my life and turned it around. And I thank you for that. Thank you for always being there, when I’m down. Thank you for constantly telling me you love me. For answering all of my phone calls, for sticking around. I love you, Alex. I always will. I promise you, it’ll never fade. I promise you forever. And I don’t break my promises.

 

cubanxx129xx: I love you with all my heart. I miss you the second I turn away when I walk away from you and all I wish to have is you for the rest of my life.

daniwoodsie: so, i'm scrolling up and down my blogspot, and im actually satisfied with it all. i actually think i've shown you just exactly how much i love you. and so, i was showering and i looked at my wrist and noticed your bracelet wasnt there, and freaked out. i thought it had fallen and slipped out of my wrist because it's so big on me. i was loooking my naked wrist for so long, but i found it. today, in class, my teacher asked us to list the things that mean the most to us, in a list of twelve. the list consister of: education, career, friends, family, love, marriage, religion, etc. My number one was love, of course. and i wrote a paragraph about how no matter what or who happens, you'll always will be number one in my life, because youre the one thing who never fails to make me happy. hector sits in front of me, he goes "bet your number one is love" i go "yep(;" "cuz youre soooooooooooo in love wit alex capaldo, right?" i just smirked at him. i actually thought i was gonna see you today and iw as so excited. but, it rained and we didnt get to, but its fine. we have the whole weekend, and were gonna spend valentines together. im reading those rare responces to my blogspots that you write me, and i love them so much. just the fact that you take the time to write something to me, is enough. i remember when i promised you forever; till the sun dies out and the ocean dries up to it's last drop. that promise is stil standing. it always will be. i cant imagine myself telling anyone else i love them. i cant imagine myself kissing anyone else and i cant imagine someone else calling me their own. i can't. i'm just not capable of having feelings for anyone else because i honestly do believe we were put in this world for eachother. i believe when god made me, he had you in mind. all of your small i love yous mean the world and a little bit more to me. you are honestly just so perfect and great to me, i can't believe you alll mine. and i just love writing to you. i love telling you i love you, all the time. it feels right. it's honestly the only thing that feels right anymore. just being with you, being in your arms, kissing you, it feels so right, i just feel so happy when im with you, it's all a dream to me, and i just dont want to wake up.
cubanxx129xx: I love you soo much dani

cubanxx129xx: And

cubanxx129xx: I wish I cold respond

cubanxx129xx: To this passed one

cubanxx129xx: Because

cubanxx129xx: Everytime I think about you

cubanxx129xx: The feeling is just of pure love and happiness

cubanxx129xx: And I just start to drift off thinking about you and all we've done togethor
daniwoodsie: you dont have to respond, i just wanted to remind you how much i love you
cubanxx129xx: Of course

cubanxx129xx: I always know.
daniwoodsie: :] good.

you fell asleep an hour ago, and i've been trying to do my homework, but i can't, when you're on my mind, all the time. i've been listening to this one song by nevershoutnever that reminds me of you,

"i know that you think of me sometimes,

because all i do is think of you at night.

i know it make take a little time,

for you to see, you are the love of my life"

it's those times you call me perfect, or cute, that get me smiling so big. i have the biggest goosebumps from just thinking about kisssing you, and i just can't wait.

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this is going to be scrambled up, i'm gonna write more and more as i take breaks from my homework, its late and i cant think clear. my aim just blinked, and i froze, and prayed it was you being all "i can't sleep" it's abbie, saying she went shopping for us. ...when we shop, we shop for both of us, even if were not together. we share clothes. anyways, i just looked at my wrist and your bracelet isnt there. i left it in the shower. -_- i hate when i dont have it on. i hate it os much, it makes me sick. i forgot to get it out of the shower monday, and i went to schol without it, and i was on the way to school and i was like "dad wait..im forgetting something" i couldnt figure out what it was, so i said fuck it. i felt naked without it, i usually play with it, stare at it, and just think about you. that's all i ever do, anymore, think about you.

alex, i can't wait till the day i get to marry you. i can't wait till the day i get to live with you, be with you all day, and sleep with you at night, wake up, and have you, still there. that's all i ever want. to always have you around. always always. i can't stay away from you, i can't not be with you. i told rachel that i wouldnt know what i'd do with myself if we ever broke up. i'd harm myself, and honestly, if we ever break up, i'd go so far with hurting myself, i doubt i'd see day light for much longer.

i need you. i need to have you, always. i need you to tell me you love me all the time. my body aches for you, when you're not around, and all i could think about are those last couple kisses and hugs.

i went to my grandparents today, and my grandma goes "y daniela, como estan los enamorados" i lolllllllled, and said good.

i hate this. i hate that youre asleep, im 1/4 done with my homework, and its barely late. i want to call you till you wake up, but i'd hate to do that to you. you need your sleep. i know how tired you are.

Dani became a fan of I love it when in the middle of our kiss I can feel you smiling.

that gave me the biggest butterflies, because we always do that.

there's all these "Valentine's pointless" statuses, and they just reminded me more and more, of how much i love being tied down to you. i wouldnt want it any other way. i want you. just you. i'll never want any other. i promise.

i'm saying fuck it to my homework, and going to sleep.

because it's the only way to speed up time, so that i could talk to you.

i love you, alex, more than life itself. i love you more than i've loved anyone. i'll always love you, more than you or anyone could imagine. you are my life, " and a little more" goodnight, baby. i hope i started off your day well.

three months.

i wake up in the morning, and i have that first day of school anticipation feeling, because i know after many hours, i'm gonna get to talk to you. i get to school, talk about you to everyone, play with your bracelet, text you in fourth, and get home, waiting and waiting for you to Im me. When people ask me if i'm sure i love you, i always respond with "I've never been so sure of it"

I woke up today, and when i realized what it was, i smiled so big, my face hurt. It feels so good having you. I've been through many, sooo many, it was about time i got someone like you.

I got home from school today and i snuck on my laptop and i stared and stared at my desktop for a good 20 minutes, the background being that picture of us, and i closed my eyes and remembered all the times we'd see each other. I'd remember how incredibly happy i was, for those couple hours, to be able to kiss you whenever i wanted to. I'm happy just touching you.

December 25th, i remember i laid on you, and ran my fingers down your arm, and i couldn't believe it was real. it didn't sink in till i got home, and told you how much i loved you. those rare times you whisper i love you between kisses, thats what i live for. i get goosebumps and shivers down my spine whenever i kiss you, and quite frankly, it's almost impossible to wipe a smile off of my face when i'm with you. Your touch, your kisses, your smile-it's all so perfect.

Sixth period comes by, and that's the worst. I stare and stare at the clock, waiting for 2:30 to hit, so i can go home, sleep, and talk to you, because that's what my day is about; talking to you.

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You are my life, Alex. Words can't describe how happy you make me. Everything can be going wrong, but i'd still have a smile on my face. I've never been able to tell someone i love them, and mean it quite like i do, with you. And I honestly know that i'm always going to love you. We can break up, you can screw me over in every way possible, but i'd still love you the same exact way.

--

I remember when we were talking, long long ago. I was always so attached to you, I always knew you meant a lot to me, Whether you liked only me, or 10 other girls. It's how you were so different than the others, How you took me seriously, from the start. And I loved you, long before I could've admitted it to you. I was so scared to tell you; maybe you didn't feel the same way, maybe i was just some other girl to you, Maybe it was too soon, maybe i would've overwhelmed you. And I remember that day on the phone, at night, the first night i spoke to you on the phone, you admitted it to me, and little did i know, i could've loved you more than i did , at that moment.

And the fact that you waited, you waited 2 months, for a girl you've never laid eyes on. Everyone thought it was so odd, but it grew to be quite normal, for us. you'd always bother me with begging to see me, and i'd get so annoyed because i was afraid you weren't going to like me, when you saw me. but, you did, and everything went so well, everythign with you is like a dream, and it recently all sunk in, that you're real. and that you're not ever going anywhere.

You just Imed me and i smiled so big, it's those cute smilies you use, whenever you say i love you, those times where we get into longgg conversations about how much we love eachother, they mean everything to me. You mean everything to me.

Alex, for as long as i live, I'm going to love you, and it seems so crazy, to me, that it's three months, and i love you more than you can imagine. How much willl i love you in a year? How about 10 years? It all just seems so amazing to me, to know i'm going to be happy for the rest of my life, because i know i'll always always have you, no matter what.

I love you, Alex. Happy three month.

love is grand.

daniwoodsie: I know, I know. I was shaking today, like it was our first date, and i was smiling so big, just like the day i fell in love with you.
daniwoodsie: and i think about forever, andi t all seems so clear to me.

daniwoodsie: but i love you so much now.

daniwoodsie: i wonder if i can ever love you more and more

daniwoodsie: as our lives go on

daniwoodsie: together

daniwoodsie: but, i've proven wrong eveyrtime

daniwoodsie: because everytime i see you

daniwoodsie: i love you so much more, alex
cubanxx129xx: Awh

cubanxx129xx: I love you dani

cubanxx129xx: You're right though

cubanxx129xx: I just find so many things that I love about you

cubanxx129xx: And I think oh maybe its because we hookup so much

cubanxx129xx: And you know like teen hormones

cubanxx129xx: But I took today expecting nothing and I was hugging and kissing you and I just loved all of it

cubanxx129xx: ...of course later on your vaj was screaming for my handdd sooo

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daniwoodsie: wow, i like you. i like being with you. i like being secure that youre not going anywhere, anytime soon.
cubanxx129xx: I don't want to go anywhere

cubanxx129xx: And I know you say soon

cubanxx129xx: But

cubanxx129xx: I

cubanxx129xx: It sounds stupid but I just want to be with you forever

cubanxx129xx: I can't live without you
daniwoodsie: I know, it sounds so cliche to say, and when we tell other ppl that, they blow if off because every other highschool couple means it, but i honestly do see myself being with you, 20, 40, 60, years from now. i picture my future, and you're always in it. my science teacher was hxc lectureing us "youre not gonna meet mr.perfect, whos gonna do great in school, marry you, and pay for everything you need. sorry to tell youi guys" and i was just thinking about you, how i already met the guy i was gonna spend my life with. and i love you so much, alex. i really cant ever love anyone else, likei love you, never in my life. i can never look at anyone, like i look at you, and i can never feel what i feel, when i kiss you, with anyone else.
cubanxx129xx: I love you so much

cubanxx129xx: Dani ,

cubanxx129xx: You are not any other highschool couple

cubanxx129xx: I see you and its just like

cubanxx129xx: Something engraved in my life

cubanxx129xx: I just wish
cubanxx129xx: I could see you more often

cubanxx129xx: But at least everytime I do its amaing

cubanxx129xx: Amazing