I was in cell today and the topic was love and Tina was just talking about the only person who is able to love unconditionally is god. how no matter how much you think you love a boy, girl, family member, that the love is always conditional. and i just got into deep thought about you. I love you, Alex. I will always love you. You can always count on my love to get you through the day, smiling. No matter what or who, I will love you and I'll love you the same because to me, you are perfection. To me, you are the person I've been looking for my entire life. You're just this amazing being that entered my life when i most needed you, and you cradled me and you took in all of my imperfections, and just forgot about them, and loved me for who i was, not for my body, and how far i'd get with you. I like to sit outside and look at the stars, and just think about times I've spent with you. the feeling that races through my veins when i press my lips against yours, i think about it all. when you kiss me, i get a feeling of love and excitement in my bones thats like no other. i smile, the hairs on my arm stand up and i just don't want to let go. Just your presence lifts my hopes and reminds me just how sweet love is. and I've been texting you a lot, writing on your wall, IMing you all the time, calling you at nights even though i know you're asleep, and it's because i'm attached. you give me a feeling no one else has ever. you make me smile brighter than any other guy has ever made me smile and you make me happier than any other person in the world is capable of. and to think, someone out there loves me so much. to think that I've finally found love. that i have someone i can say that i'm keeping forever, it all baffles me. I've never had someone put up with my bitching and jealousy quite like you. I've never had anyone deal with my problems like you. I've never seen anyone stick around and actually be happy with me, quite like you, alex. and i love you for that. i love it all. i love everything about you. there's not one thing i'd ever change about you, you're perfect. perfect for me, that is. and i do get mad when you talk to other girls, because you're so funny, attractive, and adorable, they see in you what i saw when i first met you. and i know you say you love me, but it still hurts when i see you talking to your ex girlfriends. it still bothers me when i see a winky face slide here and there. because whether you say it enough or not, i am scared. i'm scared that one day, you're going to be done. i'm scared that one morning you're going to wake up and you're just gonna decide you've had enough. that you need something newer and better. and i hate it. i want them to know you're mine. that i'm never planning on letting go. that on your forehead you have an invisible stamp saying "property of dani" and that it's stamped permanently because no matter how many times i get mad at you, no matter how many times i cry at night and swear you just don't care anymore, no matter how many times you decide to be a dick to me, i wont ever let go. i'm not able to, i know this. the other day, when you said to me "so break up with me" i stared at that sentence and i remember a tear coming down my cheek because the thought of not being with you makes me shake. the thought of not waking up and talking to you makes me feel empty. the thought of living and not being able to tell you i love you every second of the day gives me no reason to live.
I love you with all my heart, soul, and strength, Alexander Capaldo. You mean so incredibly much to me and i hope that you feel the same way. I just wanted you to wake up with this. I love you, boyfriend. I'm hoping i'll get to see you soon. Have a good day at school :]
and i want a reply by the time i wake up n aim ;))
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