live your life based on this.

bloodsugarsexmax: and look at all the people that did good and great in school

bloodsugarsexmax: right now there all getting laid off
bloodsugarsexmax: there all loseing jobs

bloodsugarsexmax: or there all rich fucking pigs that are the reason why we are losing our money

bloodsugarsexmax: and look and all the artist out there

bloodsugarsexmax: who are sucessfull

bloodsugarsexmax: why?

bloodsugarsexmax: because they didnt bother to listen to poeple like you

bloodsugarsexmax: and they follwed there hearts

bloodsugarsexmax: and spoke there words

bloodsugarsexmax: which is what i do

bloodsugarsexmax: i dont let you bring down my day

bloodsugarsexmax: i live my way

bloodsugarsexmax: so while you did great in school

bloodsugarsexmax: and you ended up being a teacher

bloodsugarsexmax: dont tell me you determine my life

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bloodsugarsexmax: but its like there all looking at life the wrong way

bloodsugarsexmax: they see it as

bloodsugarsexmax: if you dont have money

bloodsugarsexmax: or if your not big in life your nothing

bloodsugarsexmax: thats just no fair
bloodsugarsexmax: why is it that we have a bunch of fucking old hard headed people runing our country

bloodsugarsexmax: there all one sided

bloodsugarsexmax: if things arent what they want it to be

bloodsugarsexmax: its illegal

bloodsugarsexmax: thats why i get introuble so much

bloodsugarsexmax: im not a bad guy

bloodsugarsexmax: i dont hurt anyone

bloodsugarsexmax: its beacuase i speak and do what i feel

bloodsugarsexmax: if i think something isnt right ill say it

bloodsugarsexmax: get me?
daniwoodsie: completely.
bloodsugarsexmax: yeah

bloodsugarsexmax: look

bloodsugarsexmax: all you should have to worry about is being happy

bloodsugarsexmax: finding something you have a passion and doing it

bloodsugarsexmax: living by YOUR rules
bloodsugarsexmax: beacause its YOUR life

bloodsugarsexmax: some pepople might call you a bad kid, or a whore, or an idiot, or an asshole

bloodsugarsexmax: but thats beacause they are scared to live by there rules

bloodsugarsexmax: there soo set on what the law tells us, what our teachers tell us, what religion tells us.

bloodsugarsexmax: i mean

bloodsugarsexmax: people now a days are so ignorant

bloodsugarsexmax: they need to open there eyes

love is great.

love of my life: Its 11:11. And I thought about my wish and it made me think. Every time I see you I think that it'll just be something that's going to happen for the rest of my life. Its something that I love doing and when I see you it makes me so happy. I honestly thought that today was one of those like just hookups but its everything. I love you and like I've said before it grows more. Today I remember hugging you and I felt your heartbeat speed up with mine and that moment is just stuck in my head.

danyuk

daniwoodsie: go to hell, BYE JULIA IM DONE TALKING TO YOU BITCH
itsjuliiaaa: i've had a couple of pretty fun drunk momenttts

itsjuliiaaa: you're already in hell, BYE SLUT
daniwoodsie: NO I AM NOT YET

daniwoodsie: i turned christian

daniwoodsie: did you know?

daniwoodsie: im a good bitch
itsjuliiaaa: DONT WORRY YOU'RE GOING THERE.
daniwoodsie: i will raise to heaven

daniwoodsie: I AM NOT

daniwoodsie: okay maybe

daniwoodsie: and if i do, we'll carpool there, k?
itsjuliiaaa: we always used to say that!

itsjuliiaaa: lmfao, yeah, we'll go.

itsjuliiaaa: i'm going to hell, i know it.
daniwoodsie: i mean
daniwoodsie: losing virginity, drinkig, smoking, giving head in showers, being atheist

daniwoodsie: youre taking the fast trrack to hell, buddy
itsjuliiaaa: fucking, titty sucking, hooking up with girls, drinking, cyper sex, so are you, budd.

itsjuliiaaa: *cyber

certain stuff just feels right, this is one of them.

Capaldo.

I remember the beginning, I was texting you and i told you i thought you were different, you told me you heard that all the time and that i had to prove it to you. Time went on, and i did. I did prove it to you. And my answer to everything is; I'm not scared of losing you. Your constant reminders of how important I am to you let me know that this isn't a game to you, i'm not just a hook up or some girl, to you. I'm not a fling or a phase to you. and that's a first, for me. You've done this before. You've fell in love a couple of times in your past and that's what scares me, about you. You know how to treat me, you know what to say, when to say it, you know when i'm mad, what voice i use when I'm sad, you can tell when i want another kiss, when i don't want you to hang up> you've token the time to get to know me, and you honestly know me better than i know myself and i can say the same about you. When you say something, I can tell what you really mean. When you smile, I can almost guess what you're thinking and when you say I love you, I know you want to say it 100 times more. I've never been so close to perfection before, and its all so new to me. This is the happiest i've ever been. You came into my life when I most needed you and please, Dont ever leave. I need you more than you'll ever know. I need to hear your i love yous, I need to. When you kiss me, i'm sure it'll never end. Alex, I dont think you understand how much you mean to me. Youre my life. You are my world. Just like i sacrifice some sleep and hanging out with my friends on fridays, i'd take a bullet for you, give you my life, i'd do anything for you. It's like that song by eminem; Have you ever loved soeone so much, you'd give an arm for them? Not the expression, No, Literally give an arm for them. When they know they're your heart, And you know you were their armor, And you will destroy anyone who would try to harm 'her. That song means a lot to me. I think about you all the time. The times you made me smile. The times i cried, desperately begging for you to tell me you love me, so we can stop arguing. I've never been so weakened by anyone. Never cried for a guy like that. I've never been so small and vulnerable. I always wonder if you're the one. Movies say you're supposed to see fireworks when you kiss them, songs say your fingers should fit perfectly between theirs, but does that even mean anything? I try not to think ahead of myself. I try to take each day with you, one by one. I jump out of bed when i hear my mom's heels making their way to my room, so that she can wake me up. I quickly get dressed so i can turn on my computer and talk to you. I say I love you as often as i can, those couple sacred minutes i have with you in the morning and go out with my day, waiting and waiting till 2:30 strikes so that i can go home, sleep, and talk to you. Throughout my day, you're mentioned so many times. Things people say, Jokes people crack, it seems like everything reminds me of you. Your name is always written on my hand and i always look at it and smile. I try to get your attention when we're talking. Try to be as cute as possible, so you can tell me you love me. Try to be as funny as possible, so you enjoy talking to me. I try to tell you i love you as often as i can, so that i make you smile. I kiss your bracelet every night before i go to sleep, and whisper to myself that it's only a couple of hours before i get to talk to you again. I love talking to you. I love seeing my aim blink. I love seeing your name on my caller ID. Even if we're not talking about anything, I enjoy every second of it. You're just so perfect, Alex, and I don't know why you settle for me. I don't express my love as well as you do and my personality sure isn't as great as yours. I used to always dream up my future husband. I'd always picture to him to be perfect, just perfect. I knew one day i'd find someone just like him. But, i'd like to apologize. I'd like to apologize for all the times i didn't trust you. The time i'd get jealous of girls you'd talk to. The times i'd bring up Helen, Carina, Or Amanda. I'm sorry for all the times i'd bother you about cheating. I'm sorry all the times i'd nag , when you wouldn't reply quick enough. I'm sorry for the times I call you nononostop when you're sleeping. It's 11:05 and I've been writing for an hour. I should be asleep, but I don't want to. I want to keep writing. I want to get out everything I've been building up. Alex, I'm so thankful that i have you. I hear stories about how bad guys are. Joao's dumping his girlfriend because she wont give him a blowjob. Azmae gets used on a daily basis. Abbie's boyfriend was cheating on her. I can go on and on and when i hear these stories, I just want to run to you and tell you I love you, and thank you for holding me together. For sticking it through. It's only been four months since we met but it feels like an eternity. You waited 2 months to see me. I don't know anyone who'd that for someone. You've put up with my shit, and you take it all from me. And i'm happy, Alex. Thanks to you. I've never been this happy. I've never been so loved. I've never experienced anything like this. Ever. Every 11:11 i wish for us to last forever, and i have a feeling my wish is going to come true. At school, People bring me down so bad. They tell me you're gonna cheat on me, Or i'm gonna cheat on you. That we're not gonna last. That everything you tell me is bullshit. That we're so fake. That we're in too deep and it ruins me, It breaks me up into 100 pieces, to the point where i can't stand up for myself. I've slowly stopped telling people about us. Slowly stopped bringing you up. When people ask how we are, I say perfect and change the conversation. You may not be able to take my virginity, But being my first love is just good enough, I'd think so. Theres not a day where I regret having sex. Theres not a day where i don't think about it. Theres not a day where i wish i can take it all back, so that you can be happier. But, that's not important. What we do when we see each other means nothing.

After all the things you said to me today, to make me feel better, I just wanted to return the favor, and remind you how much you mean to me and how much i love you. Words may not describe how much i love you, but i can atleast try. Goodnight, Alexander. I'm going to sleep, so that I can have energy to wake up tomorrow and talk to you. I love you, Baby, Remember that.

love of my life: Uhm dani I sorta need to ask you something

love of my life: Oh it can't be that bad I hardly did anything

love of my life: I need to ask you something like forealskiezzzzz
daniwoodsie: whatwhat
love of my life: Uhm do you love me. Like honestly. And still do like nothings changed.

love of my life: Because i love you so much and everytime I see you I honestly fall In love more. I don't know how.
daniwoodsie: Of course I still love you. I think about you all day, and all night. I dont sleep when i miss you. Youre the only person i talk to all day and my life revolves around you. Yeah, I still love you. More than you can imagine. Yeah, stuff has changed. I love you more than i did before, thats the only thing that's changed.

daniwoodsie: why?
love of my life: Because i love you so much more after everytime I see you

love of my life: Everytime I see you

love of my life: I don't know how

love of my life: Like I think i love you but then i love you even more.

love of my life: And I feel like I want to marry you.
love of my life: I don't know why its weird >_ >
daniwoodsie: wow, im shaking. i dont know what to say.

daniwoodsie: I love you, Alex. Im always smiling betweeen every kiss and my legs start shaking when im with you because im just freaking out, and i wanna look and be absolutely perfect for you, because thats what you deserve. i love you i love you i loooooooooooveee you
love of my life: Hmm theirs nothing you have to say its just something I was thinking about and talking to juan and jonathan

love of my life: I love you too :]
daniwoodsie: theyre cool as hell.

when life turns around, i always always have victoria fiedler.

cutie patootie: you will always and FOREVER have me right bad your side through thick and thin no matter what happens, i'll ALWAYS be there for you and NEVER ever let you down. nothing could pull us apart from our friendship not diffferent schools, and not even different groups of friends. i love you so much, and dont you forget. wheverrr you need to talk, i'll be here for youuu. and i'll actually listen. dont look at the negatives looook at the positives, you have a perfext boyfriend who loves you, and you have great friends. <3
daniwoodsie: omg, im smiling so big, my eyes are tearing up. i'm so glad i met you, victoria fiedler. i never expected you to be this great, not even close. you are such an amazing friend, you never left me, when i most needed a friend. you never forget about me and you never leave me out. i love you i love you, youve proven that youre always there, always always. youve helped me through tears and you know i'll return you the favor, a hundred and one times. i love you.<3

this wont make sense.

I see myself in you. I always have. But, you were always stronger at admitting to your insecurities and weaker at dealing with them. you're slowly learning how to deal with it; how to deal with it all, and i may seem like i have it all together, like everything is balanced out, but theres days like this where nothing goes right, except for alex, of course. i wish i had you with me all the time. i wish you were always sitting next to me whenever i wanted a kiss. i wish you were arm distance whenever i wanted to hug you. i wonder why i don't grow tempted to cheat. i cant. whenever i try checking some guy out, i end up feeling so disgusted. i've never been this close and i should be scared. i should be terrified. because if i lose you, what do i have? i've put in my life and time of day into you and if i don't have you anymore, where do i go? i'd go back to being how i used to. i was always single, but never alone, and it killed me. no one took me seriously. no one gave me the time of day. i was the definition of hump and dump, hit and rip, smash and dash. but, i dont have to worry about the what ifs. i know i wont have to be alone. i know i wont have to be without you. i have a headache, its killling me, i cant be in my good mood. remembering sunday wont even liven me up. i have science midterms tomorrow and im gonna fail. i feel myself slipping into my old bad secret keeping self and i don't like it.

Today was bad. i found out that my past was catching up to me, yet again. My reputation was repeating itself. i ran away from palmetto, because of what kind of girl i was known at there. I stay in Killian because its a fresh, new start for me. No one knows about my past, and who or what i did in it. I hated girls knowing me as the whore, and guys only likeing me because i was the whore. but, guys isnt the issue. guys havent been the issue for months, because i honestly have the perfect one. alex is the only person who doesnt care about my past, honestly. maybe i should stop wearing so much make up, and actually wear the school polos and not the slutty ones. maybe then ppl will think im a prude little bitch.

stuff to look back at and smile.

love of my life: Oh an by the way.

love of my life: To answer your question Dani the reason I stay is simply just because i love you. I need no other reason. Everytime we see eachother its better than the last time. At times I do act frustrated that I can't see you, but that just shows how much I want to see you. And if I can't ill wait because I know its worth it. As time went by I began to think that maybe we were losing our touch, without me noticing that it was my fault because of mid-terms, but I guess I was dead wrong. The only thing that happened is out conversations have gotten more open and more fluid as time passed. I hope it keeps going this way because if it does I doubt either of us will get sick of eachother. Remember always when you think about me whether in worry or happy, that i love you. P.S. My phone spell checks your name to donk lmfaooo. She gotta donk! ;]

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january 31st.

daniwoodsie: I love youuuuuuuu I love youuu I love you,
love of my life: I love you too :]
daniwoodsie: I love you.

daniwoodsie: I love you.
love of my life: Noo!

love of my life: I love YOU

love of my life: X]
daniwoodsie: I love you.

daniwoodsie: I love you.

daniwoodsie: I love you.

daniwoodsie: I love you, i wanna kiss you, i miss you.
love of my life: :/ h

love of my life: Dani

love of my life: 6 days

love of my life: Without you

love of my life: I get sad thinking about it

love of my life: I love you so much i don't know why

love of my life: Like

love of my life: Its so much

love of my life: Its a first not gonna lie
daniwoodsie: I like hearing that. I've always strived to be better than the past ones. and i always wondered if you loved me more than phephy, since she was your first girlfriend and first everything.
love of my life: Not my first everything

love of my life: Look dani

love of my life: You might not be my first. But everything to this point is far beyond any of my other girlfriends. Don't compare yourself to the. I basically consider you my wife er longtime partner lol they were just girlfriends you mean so much ore than all of them put togethor and even more than that.
daniwoodsie: Really? :-D i was always intimidated by all of them, because if you kept them around for so long, they must have meant a lot to you and im always scared that im not gonna be as good as them, but i love you, alex. youre so perfect, you always tell me what i need to hear.
love of my life: :D h

love of my life: And its not what you want to hear its just what I feel

love of my life: Really I do

love of my life: Like

love of my life: I love you

love of my life: And I love the way you are

love of my life: Just the fact that you have a fun tme

love of my life: And still have a serious relationship

love of my life: You're what I need

love of my life: Exactly what I've always wanted.
daniwoodsie: wow, i dont know what to say.
love of my life: :]

love of my life: You don't have to say anything

love of my life: Theirs nothing left to say

love of my life: We both know how we feel towards eachother

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daniwoodsie: 6 is too big of a number

daniwoodsie: too long
love of my life: then 8 is just impossible for you to handle ;]
daniwoodsie: WHATS YR POINT
love of my life: That

love of my life: You're going to need a friend to help you out x]
daniwoodsie: WHAT DO YOU THINK I HAVE ABBIE FOR
love of my life: NOOOOOOO

love of my life: Wait

love of my life: Mehh

love of my life: Not That bad.

love of my life: Ill close my eyes

love of my life: Make sure she never looks up
daniwoodsie: ............................................................

daniwoodsie: WAIT

daniwoodsie: WAIT

daniwoodsie: what are YOU talking about!?
love of my life: Lmfao

love of my life: You said you have abbie to help me out with my cock

love of my life: XzD

love of my life: When I said 8 I meant inches on my dick
daniwoodsie: .....................................................................................................

daniwoodsie: youre such a guy

daniwoodsie: i wasnt eveb

daniwoodsie: ..

daniwoodsie: ..........

daniwoodsie: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA

daniwoodsie: OMG

daniwoodsie: MY LIFE
love of my life: I know xD
daniwoodsie: I WAS TALKING ABOUT
love of my life: Haha

love of my life: Read it

love of my life: Lmfao I KNOW
daniwoodsie: I KNOW

daniwoodsie: I GET IT

daniwoodsie: HAHAHA

daniwoodsie: HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA

daniwoodsie: OMG

daniwoodsie: YOU

daniwoodsie: ..

daniwoodsie: OMG

daniwoodsie: HAHAH

daniwoodsie: OMG

daniwoodsie: LIFE IS GOOD
love of my life: XD

love of my life: Seeeeee

love of my life: Me funnay
daniwoodsie: you are

daniwoodsie: a fucking god

daniwoodsie: for that

daniwoodsie: youre hilarious
love of my life: Mhmmm
daniwoodsie: I LOVE YOU

daniwoodsie: and no

daniwoodsie: i do not need a sidekick

daniwoodsie: or partner in crime

daniwoodsie: you sick fuck

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love of my life: ill hate it if I lose my virginity to some drunk. T_T
daniwoodsie: you wont, i dont want it to be that trashy.

daniwoodsie: i want our first time to actually mean something, believe it or not.
daniwoodsie: as much as i want to,everytime i see you, i dont ask for it anymore, i dont bring it up when i see you, because i dont want to push it on you. i dont want to remember our first time as some drunken hook up in some random place.
love of my life: Ok good ">:o" h

love of my life: No like I want to do it

love of my life: In all honesty

love of my life: I mean cmon im a guy

love of my life: But not drunk def. Not
daniwoodsie: i know, i know. how long do you want to wait?

daniwoodsie: i remember, when we first started calling eachother every night, you told me you didnt value your virginity.

daniwoodsie: not gonna lie, i'd think about that all the time, wondering if you were just saying that.
love of my life: I value it to an extent

love of my life: I care who and how I give it up to someone

love of my life: And I don't want to wait

love of my life: I know that you're the love of my life

love of my life: And that you're the person im losing it to
love of my life: The end *closes book*

love of my life: Lol
daniwoodsie: love of my life (4:14:51 PM): I know that you're the love of my life

daniwoodsie: wow, i legit couldnt breathe when i read that.

daniwoodsie: I love you, alex :|
love of my life: I love you too :]

love of my life: What's wront?

love of my life: Wrong*
daniwoodsie: nothing, :-D i love you. i love youu i lvoe you iv love egjrei lov3 you i l0v3 you i lov eyou ilyoyilyiyly i loe you
love of my life: T_T

love of my life: Tell meeeeee
daniwoodsie: nothing, i just learn more and more everyday, how much you love me, and it's a lot to take in.
love of my life: Hmm

love of my life: Finefine ill slow down ;]
daniwoodsie: NO ">:o"
love of my life: Okok :o

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daniwoodsie: 11:11; i love you.
love of my life (cubanxx129xx) is available
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love of my life: Haha

love of my life: Everyday

love of my life: My wish came true a long time ago
daniwoodsie: On November 10th, 2009. Its like i have nothing to wish for, i have everything i want.
love of my life: :]

love of my life: I can't wait until nov. 10 2010.
daniwoodsie: I just can't wait till feb 10, and then feb 14th.

daniwoodsie: I think were gonna make it to a year, i really do.
love of my life: And then years to come ;]

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daniwoodsie: looks like you like them more than you like me.
love of my life: Nah ;]
love of my life: No one can measure to how much i love you.
daniwoodsie: :-D

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