capaldo.

i woke up this morning and instead of being anxious to talk to you to hear what you thought about my blogspot post, i felt bad because i had fallen asleep the night before and forgot to write to you. i like writing to you every night, when you're fast asleep, so that you read it in the morning. i like being the one who starts off your day well. you deserve to be happy as hell, and i try giving that to you. i love you so much and i'm so lucky to have you. you're not just some luxury in my life, you're a necessity and i need you as much as i need the air i breathe. i cant imagine my life without you and i never want to. i don't know how i was ever happy, before i met you. i was put in this world to be with you, and i'm so glad we found each other at such a young age. my friend was like "look, i dont wanna say this, but you and alex, will, idk maybe in a month, maybe 2 months or maybe even in a year, will eventually break up, and you know eric will always be here for you" and i gave him the hardest look and didnt respond to him. there wont be no end. not in a month, 2 months or even in a year. i'm in this forever. we're gonna last forever.

so, i look at my parent's marriage and i listen to their fights and i think about us. i wonder if we're ever gonna end up like that. i think about how they ended up and i think about how we argue. how i'm so desperate to end the argument and tell you i love you, again and again. my mom's desperate for my dad to get back with her, and my dad's desperate for her to stop wanting that. and i dont want to ever fight with you. i want to be with you. i want to marry you. i want to spend the rest of my life with you. i want to die, knowing we lived a long and perfect marriage.

that night you fell asleep on me, i stayed in bed listening to you breathing, and i was assured that someone as perfect as you was real. i don't know what i ever did to deserve you, but karma really did pay me some slack.

i love you so much. i don't need to see you to be assured that i do love you. i don't need to kiss you to know that its not all just appearance i'm interested in. i could spend the rest of my life without seeing you, and i'd still be crazy in love with you. I've been so happy, lately, and i don't want it to ever end. i love you. you're all i need. please, don't ever leave me.